11 weeks, 2 days

So here I am, in the last few weeks of my first trimester – which is both exciting and worrisome. Exciting because soon we’ll be out of the so called ‘Danger Zone’ (although I appreciate you’re never fully out of that, there’s always the possibility of something going wrong) and also we’ll be able to tell the world! Worrisome because we’re so close to the second trimester that I’ve almost convinced myself that something is going to go wrong….but I guess that’s part of pregnancy/motherhood – constant worry! I know I’m being silly but I can’t seem to help it!

So what’s happened in the last week, other than being constantly worried…well…I’ve discovered a craving for chicken chow mein – could be a lot worse I suppose, at least it’s not sugar or butter or something really odd like jellied eels?! I’ve also only been waking up once in the night to go to the loo, rather than twice as usual – could it be that my uterus is starting to lift, so there’s less pressure on my bladder?

I’ve been wondering if I’m starting to show as well, but I think that’s all in my head. Having been somewhat overweight before I got pregnant (BMI 29.5) I know that it simply isn’t possible for me to be showing yet but, according to the app (WhatToExpect) the baby is the size of a lime this week?!

I’ve got two work dinners this week, with the two teams that I work with, and I’ve been contemplating telling them our news – partly because I’m almost 12 weeks and partly because otherwise I’ll have to lie about why I’m not drinking alcohol: I’ve managed to avoid work social events up to now but I can’t get out of these ones.  I’ve suddenly become very nervous that something is going to go wrong, which is why I’m now not too sure about telling them. I have my NHS scan in less than two weeks, so maybe I’ll wait until then..I might just have to wait and see how I feel on both days.

I’ve also started thinking about work and discussing it all with my husband…how long I want to go on maternity leave for…how long we can afford for me to be off…what will happen to my job…will I be able to still do my job and have a little one at home…what familial support options do we have…what about childcare…etc…some quite serious conversations! But important ones, nonetheless…

In other news there have been some rather strange sensations going on – popping and twinges, also aching around my ribs – I guess everything is stretching and getting ready for the second trimester! Will keep you updated, of course…!

10 weeks, 2 days

I know I haven’t posted in over a week but there’s not been very much to report. My symptoms haven’t really changed (although I’m experiencing the need to burp several times an hour) and I was just waiting for my private scan yesterday so I’d have something exciting to report..!

So, I went for the scan first thing yesterday morning and there it was, our little prune (size according to WhatToExpect app). How exciting! We got to see the heartbeat and was told everything looked as it should and there was no cause for concern. However, the sonographer did say that, whilst I thought I was 10w1d based on the first day of my last period, the baby was measuring at 9w1d. I was told this was nothing to worry about and that by the time I have my NHS scan the baby should have caught up. It may also have to do with the position of the baby and I may have ovulated later than I thought – all apparently perfectly normal at this stage. Though of course the doesn’t stop me being concerned as I am, and always will be, a worrier.

I’ve spoken to a couple of friends since the scan who have all said that their dates were completely out for their entire pregnancy and they just went by the first day of their last period and everything was fine – so that’s a comfort at least. They said that each baby has growth spurts at different points in the pregnancy and that nothing is textbook – I really must remember that!

Still, back to our little prune, I was so relieved to see something in there! I thought I’d be emotional, but I didn’t shed a tear..I guess I had been concentrating so much on whether or not something was there that I was just happy everything was ok! Also, it really didn’t look like much more than a jellybean – although it did have one arm stuck out, so you could say it was waving to us!

My NHS scan is on 5th May when, according to my dates, I’ll be 13w exactly – here’s hoping baby has caught up by then!

(P.S. If you’ve had any measurement discrepancy experiences and would like to share, I’d be really interested to know what happened! Please comment)

8 weeks, 4 days

Another busy week for me, my family keep telling me I have to slow down soon but unfortunately I don’t have that option until I tell my boss I’m pregnant and I’m not willing to do that just yet..10 days until my early reassurance scan and I can’t wait! I know (provided everything is ok) that I’ll be a lot more relaxed after the private scan at 10 weeks, so I’m just taking everything one day at a time.

Some more twinges over the last few days, so I’ve been quite concerned but I’ve never been pregnant before so I just have to trust that my body knows what it’s doing and everything will be fine. I’m still trying to eat a rainbow of fruit and veg, although to be honest I’m getting a little bored of it at the moment.! Though I will, of course, persevere – this baby needs all the nourishment I can give it afterall. Also sleep, baby (and mummy!) need lots of sleep at the moment. I’m going to bed around 9:30pm each night and getting up at least once in the night for a wee – which is followed by not finding it particularly easy to get back to sleep, then waking up at 6:30am for work. Making a baby is pretty tiring! Thank the Lord for afternoon naps on the weekend, heehee.

So it’s just a short post this week, as nothing has really changed of note since my last post – other than the baby now being the size of a raspberry! It’s destined to be the size of a yummy grape by Friday, when I’ll be 9 weeks. Let’s see what that’ll bring!